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An inspector's velocipede. [Mar. 8th, 2010|12:48 am]

fatalhaze
If the rain could wash away my sanity,
I would run out whenever it comes.



Hate.
It's a rather powerful word, with a superlatively negative meaning.
Once you use that word, it'll go down in your history book as forever hating that other party.
Well, maybe not forever, but it'll still disrupt and corrupt the bond between you and him/her/them.
I've used it once or twice, before.
But I'll use it again today.

I seriously hate today's training.
No whys, no buts, no ifs.
It's just, so freaking simple.
But people just like making simple things, complicated.
C'mon.
We've been training for, almost 2 months already.
And it's back to square one now.
I'm tired.
I know you guys are too.
I can see who's making the effort, who's not.
Just don't wanna name names.
It's hard for me to voice out, when I wanna keep the relationship between everyone, working as per normal.
I don't like currying flavour, I don't like doing anything that's not me.
I just like being myself.
But it's hard to be myself, when I'm out on the field, trying to contain everything.
I feel so foreign to myself now, like I'm on an "out of this world" excursion.
And the excursion, is a one way road to hell.

It's hard to explain why I feel this way.
It just happens to be that way.
I feel everyone, being so far from my reach now.
It's like I wanna grab hold and pull you guys close, but I just can't.
No matter what I do.
This whole group, has been like a second or third family to me.
I just can't take it lying down, seeing a whole group of you guys turning into some, distant beings.

Today's simulation, was really disappointing.
Only the handlers were swinging.
One or two bids made by the mids to secure the discs, that was all.
A few stunning cuts, but not up to my expectation for a 5 drop turn-over O-D simulation.
It's not about how well you play.
It's whether, more on how much you want to play.
If you don't wanna make the effort,  why bother coming?
The handlers were not really that good at all.
I can't see them running into space, I can't see them shouting for dumps, I can't see them calling for plays.
My feeling of the team before, was that we could win anything if we trained a lil more.
Well, not really everything, but yeah, you get my drift.
And now, everything just came crashing down the roof, slapping me back in my face, like how a piece of cold, hard reality always does.
Feels very sickening and disgusting, to be that way.
But rants are just rants.
I feel more comfortable and relaxed, spewing everything in one shot out here.

Well, to the kids who come and read this..
Please kindly tell your comrades to get their head in the game. -HSM-
Ultimate is not just a team sport.
It's passion, trust, teamwork, and lastly, effort.

I saw what effort brought me to.
I saw what passion brought me to.
I saw what trust and teamwork brought me to.
TBH, I've been through all these in my Primary School.
And it's a great tool, when you get the advantage due to some environmental issue, or morale issue.
A young age, yet able to understand the intricacies surrounding the mystical values behind it.
I'm sure the whole bunch of you, experienced it before.
So, yeah lah.
Anyway, I'll end this segment.
Stop here, right now.
Very lazy to be bothered to continue, so mehhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

If you wanna play in the top tier,
You have to be willing to die for the disc.


ends badromance.ladymama
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If you had the power of traipsing time.. [Mar. 7th, 2010|12:35 am]

fatalhaze
Alter destiny,
Or change future?



If one day, you find out that the key to your future is in your hands, would you still open the lock?
In the same reason as, you know that an unknown box contains treasures of untold measures, but there's a tiny percentage that it will contain bad stuff, would you open it?
Would you alter your future, if you knew what might happen tomorrow?
You walk into the pathway of time, and see what happens next week, next month, next year.
Be it good or bad, you still have to walk down your pathway of life.
But in any circumstance, would you dread what's gonna happen to you, if what you saw was really negative?
And if it's good, would you try to add spices and touches to it, to make that moment more magical?

I in any case, would rather be under that veil of secrecy, shroud of fog, whether as to what the next day contains.
Because, I know that since it's unpredictable, what would happen, I would take each blow and hit willingly.
And then propel myself back up, if it's a really huge blow.
And if it's good, I'll cherish that moment all my life, in the back of my mind, bringing it back out again when I think back.

But, one can't help but stop to think..
If he or she could really travel time, what would that person do?
Or, let's say I can travel time.
I would most probably not do anything about it.
Maybe I would see the most important times of my life, like my marriage, my graduation, my enlistment, so on and so forth.
I would make all the good times, better.
And the worst times, happier.
The irony, but yeah.
That's what I would most prolly do.

Anyway, this is just food for your thoughts.
The main question is, what would you do?
I'll end this with a quote, as usual.

If you can't heal as a team,
You'll die as individuals.


ends crazynight.walkinginthefield.withascreaminggirlonmyback
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I'm a self-proclaimed Iconoclast! [Mar. 6th, 2010|01:48 am]

fatalhaze
Sticks and stones may break my bones,
But words won't ever hurt me.



An Iconoclast is, 
1. A breaker or destroyer of images, esp. those set up for religious veneration.
2. A person who attacks cherished beliefs, traditional institutions, etc., as being based on error or superstition.

Anyway, coming back to my life.
I've been living each passing day, so frantically.
It's been time, since I sat down alone, thinking about what my next few steps are gonna be.
So long, since I've actually walked down a road, looking at the stars, marveling at nature's wonderful creation.
I feel that, most of my feelings, emotions, are long gone.
What overrides them, are just, the belief of living my life each day, taking a hit at a time, and going slow.
It's an uphill task, to change it to way it was back then.
But, I really want to go back to the past.

Mehhhhhhhhh.
So much reminiscence, just for the sake of memories.
Life on the highway, is so much stressful.
I wanna go back to the countryside, where the grass is greener.

Oh mannnnnnn! 
& Ultimate is getting more, addictive.
But I don't like the freaking hot sun.
I wanna get faster, stronger, higher, better.

Anyway, it's pretty late already.
I'm gonna get a rest.
My dreams are catching up to meeeeeeee! 
Muahahahaha. :D
Goodnights world.
-AliceInWonderLand-

The grace of a ballerina,
Outdone by it's swan song.


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Help Chile, Charitable vgift, March header contest, Frank & Meme [Mar. 4th, 2010|03:20 pm]

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Livejournal Newsletter


We're gearing up for a couple of major releases over the next few weeks, so there's not much in the way of bug fixes or product announcements this week (other than our spiffed up news template). We promise to have exciting "real news" for you very soon! In the meantime, Frank is so grateful that he can count on you that he'd like you to count on him too! To celebrate his freedom from ice-skating (both viewing and participating), his good friend, Sheldon, suggested we honor the Figure 8! If at least two elements of your birthday (month + day; day + year; month + day + year; etc.) add up to 8, Frank'll glide you over a pair of skates. In other words, if you were born on May 3rd (5+3), bazinga! If you were born on April Fools, 1992 (4+1+1+9+9+2=26; 2+6=8), double bazinga!! Creative calculations are most welcome. Let the math festivities begin!

Stuff you should know

  • We received a number of wonderful suggestions for our next charitable vgift drive. You can help us select a nonprofit by voting in our poll, which we'll keep open until Monday, March 8th, at noon, PST. Keep in mind that some of these organizations (including Doctors without Borders) are supporting emergency care in Chile.
  • Thanks to a user suggestion, we're offering a Help_Chile charitable vgift. Priced at $9.99, we'll donate all proceeds (we'll cover credit card fees) to support relief efforts in Chile. Remember that whenever you receive $10 in vgifts (rounded up) within a two-week period, you get two months of paid account time. A heartfelt shout out to [info]help_chile for creating a UNICEF support page for LiveJournal. All proceeds raised will benefit Help_Chile LiveJournal on UNICEF. Be sure to tell us about other communities that are making a difference in the comments below!

Head[er]s up!

  • Color us dazzled. We loved each and every one of your March header designs. That's why we're so relieved that we don't have to choose a winner ourselves. Please check out our March header poll and let us know which design you'd like to see on the top of LiveJournal up through the first week of April. The polls stay open until Monday, March 8th, at noon, PST.
  • You can start posting April headers (900x90 pixels) now through the end of the month at [info]ljnewscontests. From flower power to April showers, let your imagination run wild (just keep it youth-friendly). The winner will receive an annual paid account credit (which you can keep or give to a friend). We'll award all other participants who submit one or more valid entries one month of paid time (which you can also give to a friend if you'd like). We thank you for sharing your talent and creativity!


For this week's winning photo and more adventures with Frank & Meme, we'll catch you under the cut! Read more... )
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I'll never be the same if we ever meet [Mar. 4th, 2010|01:37 am]

kcblabla
Have you ever had a dream was so real
That it seemed like reality?
Or that you know that that's a dream?
How can you tell then
That the reality we're living now, its just a dream
And the dream we're living in, its what we call reality

As usual, I'll come here and rant about not finding a job
I interviewed a few, but no calls returned
Anyways, as i was daydreaming just now
I remembered the silly things i did when i was young
There was one, during primary 6
Being ignorant about using a phone
I tried to send me friend something using bluetooth
From my house, I thought that i can link it
Thinking back, if i was able to link here
My screen will be bombarded with bluetooth names
And i have changed almost 7 phones in just 5 years time
Ohyeah, I have no luck with phones

Speaking about jobs
I remember when i told my parents
I'll make a like a thousand plus, maybe more
But now, school's starting
I haven even earned more than 200 bucks
Mahhh what the hell
I really feel like going town now
Going there and buy some shit
Before my CNY money is finished with daily expenses ..
Though all my friends are like working
And I'm the one with financial problems =.=

Mahhh, just another plain old boring day
So goodnight and sweet potato dreams!
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I'll always be here. [Mar. 3rd, 2010|02:11 am]

fatalhaze
Do things that are worth doing,
And do it right.



I'm so freaking tired right now.
Mentally and physically.
It's a choice, because I choose to be.
It's 2am plus minus already.
So damn late.
But since I have no work tmr, who cares?! (;
Hah.

Anyway, this'll be a short post.
Cause I have no inspiration whatsoever already.
Post another day.
-Tata!-

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March Header Design Contest [Mar. 1st, 2010|06:44 pm]

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[vampirebites13]
[Current Mood | tired]

So... I've never done anything like this before so please be kind!! :) *iz a noob* I also couldn't decide on what theme to go with, and since RL's not so hot right now and I welcomed the distraction there's 3 different headers to choose from... Enjoy!! *fingers crossed*

Right this way... )

♥ Angie
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A Race With No First Place. [Mar. 2nd, 2010|06:07 am]

iqwoo
[Current Mood | grumpy]



 Push and pull, everything has to give in
I am always running in my dreams
Think like an adult, wait, I'm only sixteen
Age has no effect on this regime 

I wonder if you know my heart
Or know but still do it
Time passes as it gets hard
How long can I stand in that outfit? 


 
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The willingness to sacrifice everything. [Mar. 2nd, 2010|02:03 am]

fatalhaze
Whether you prevail or fail, endure or die,
Depends more on what you do yourself than on what the world does to you.



Hey-yoh, kiddos! 
I'm back, but with a twist.
I can't use the computer anymore after this post.
Mainly because, I have alot of committments I have to entertain.
Oh man, sad case right? 
And recently, my computer died.
So I'm using my sis' computer to do my stuff.
& the SP's application thingamot is so freaking mafan. -.-
Have to do this and that and this and that.
Damnit.
It's just basically, entry requirements to the school.
But they have to make it so damn complicated and complex.
Ahhhhh, elitist country, elitist education system, elitist people.
Psshh.

Anyway, have been busying myself with work.
Yes, you heard me right.
Work.

And my post here, is to talk about my workplace, office politics and stuff like that.
Oh yeah, and to date, I think I earned quite alot of money from that place.
Around, $4 million SGD.
No kidding.

I worked as a waiter.
At this restaurant, called Peony Jade.
Clarke Quay.
A quaint little restaurant, with quite a nice ambience, very nice prices on the menu too and quite out of place for me.
Had tons of fun working there, made a number of friends, and basically, enjoyed lah.
Most of the time, was spent doing arms and back breaking work, like serving dishes, carrying stacks of plates, so on and so forth. 

So anyway, I met a couple of really awesome people there.
And what made me really, recognise them, was the way they carried themselves.
I was quite an anti-social creature there.
I worked alone there, only once.
Because I didn't like new environments, and I didn't like being away from people I know.
And, I'm not a really, friendly person.
I hate self-introductions, and don't like anything to do with strangers.
But, work is work.
And it's there, that I learnt tons of new stuff.
Yeah.

And, there's this one particular person, I seriously dislike.
He's the manager of the restaurant, and a real slacker.
There's a total of two managers, and this dude, is a real fuck-tard.
Not only does he bootlick, he also has two faces.
One is, infront of the boss and another is behind him.
Fucking moron, if I had the money, and the rank, I would fucking blast him to the ends of the world.
Mother fucker malaysian-chinese asshole.
Go back to your country, you cow.
Fucking non-halal piece of shit.
He's like a fucking snake, so fucking vile and disgusting and everything.
Sorry for the vulgarities, but it has been on me for so damn long, tolerating him and such.

He takes freaking 5 mins smoking breaks every 15 minutes, and I think alot of people don't like him in the company.
And when we're late, he'll fucking scold us and stuff.
I mean, give me a fucking MALAYSIAN car and I'll get to work on time, asshole.
Oh yeah, and did I tell you, his body, up down left right, covered in budget stuff. 
Anyway, not like I want to be late, but fuck me senseless, I'm tired and I get on my bed around 2am everyday.
And I have to wake up at 830, to ensure that I'm not late.
So when I do come in late, at least say don't be late next time, or just shut the fuck up.
And he never once, does the setting with us.
Not even once.
The other manager also gets damn pissed with him everytime.
Then there's this other lady, which I'm quite friendly with, I think she's his fiancee or girlfriend.
And the other manager commented once, without this lady, I think he can't do his work.
The lady works in the pantry, hollering for the chef to whip up which tables dishes.
And this manager sits at the cashier most of the time, but ends up running into the fucking kitchen to just talk to the lady.
I mean, cmon.
I also have a girlfriend.
You can do it after work, cunt.
And the best part is, he drives her to and fro from work.
Ain't that enough "cuddling and meeting up" time? -.-
Holy shit, all these typing about him is getting me fired and mad.
Lmfao.

Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, let's carry on.
Anyway, recieved one angpao from one of the guests.
And it's $10.
But the table, it's in the VIP room btw and there's actually two tables, got really worked up due to the immense alcohol  they ordered.
And at the end, their total bill amounted to around $3200.
Two tables, $788 each, added together plus GST and service charge, will come to around $1600.
And they bought wines and lager, so the total gets to $3200.
Freaking crazy, I know.
But, rich people eat cold hard cash without using their brains.
And some of them got so whipped out due to the alcohol, they go crazy.
They can be ordering heineken one moment, and the next, they want warm water.
But working at that place, in that environment, helps me open up my eyes, and see what's fine dining all about.
And people can be really, selfless in a way, that they will rush to pay the bill, regardless of the price.

And over dinner, is where people can really bond.
I see family members drinking and toasting to one another, and really being very happy, eating jovially.
It makes me feel, so warm and fuzzy inside, because I haven't been eating with my family, for almost 3 weeks now.
And I haven't been seeing my friends for so damn long already.
I think I have been neglecting my life, for as long as when my job came and arrived.
Ahhhh, sucks to be earning money.

Oh man, I'm getting so tired already.
It's 2am right now.
O'well, I'll be getting off the computer and going to sleep.
And Imma end it with a quote, like before.

Experience isn't handed on a silver platter.
You have to earn it, by going the hard way.

So anyway, tata, goodnights, sleep tight, whatever you want me to say.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

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Homepage Spotlight 3/01/10 [Mar. 1st, 2010|09:22 am]

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Do you have a burning question that requires extraordinary insight and diplomacy? You've come to the right place. No matter if you're having trouble with a boundary-less roommate, a back-stabbing coworker, or an unresponsive agent representing your debut novel, simply post your detailed query, and magical help is on the way.
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Homepage Spotlight 3/01/10 [Mar. 1st, 2010|09:21 am]

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For parents and parents-to-be, little questions, like whether to use cloth or disposable diapers or the going rate of allowance for high schoolers, can inspire lively debate. If you have a parenting dilemma that warrants discussion, bring it! From baby food to video gaming, you can meet, and gain wisdom from, other folks who are tackling the same issues. And, if you're a teen, first-hand insight is especially welcome.
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Homepage Spotlight 3/01/10 [Mar. 1st, 2010|09:20 am]

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A relatively new spin-off of the ever-popular [info]ohnotheydidnt, this community found its inspiration in the under-representation of creepy posts. If you're a fan of urban legends, paranormal activities, and eerily disturbing images, you've found a new hang-out. Posts range from personal stories to odd pictures that highlight supernatural or unexplained phenomena. Be forewarned: It's weirdly addictive.
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March Header Design Contest [Mar. 1st, 2010|10:36 am]

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[zerisama]
I didn't put the LJ logo on it, because I figured LJ would do it themselves for whatever entry that won. I don't expect mine to, but I don't care. I entered for fun. (:

Here's my entry. )
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March Header Design Contest. [Mar. 1st, 2010|12:45 pm]

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[los_magnitos]
Greetings from Moldova!
The first day of spring in our country - is always a holiday!
Celebration of Spring in Moldova )
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That my true feelings for them never revealed [Mar. 1st, 2010|04:29 pm]

kcblabla
I've been trying to find some of the so called Ahbengs blog
And atfer reading Saras blog, I cant agree more
Its seriously entertaining

Knn, i just come home from jovan's house, my mother kpkb lin na bei cao chee bai. I spend time with my friends she huan lo ? Lim pei rather spend time with friends then family lor. Knn, one day i will just run away from home la. I very du lan her liao, ccb speak until she know everything about me. If i run away from home, who can help me ?

Xia0BITCH said...
Heyys , please lahs .You
mother give birth toyou let you stare at ppl si bo ?!Stare wht stare , like
never stare before . I know why you all stare liaos lahs .Cause ahlians are more
fashion type mahs , dhen you all see liaos think very funny why they wear wear
like that right ? CB lahs .LOLS , i'm shoo lame -.-'Okays stop playing . Ahlian
are more fashion lahs ,this ish th truth . No likeyou all "guai bao bao" , wear
till like lao auntie lao uncle like that . ohmytians .Aliens !!! -.-'


I ask my zabor faster zao faster zao, my zabor don't want to zao.
I thought is because she love me too much then she don't want to pangseh me. That moment I really love her super lots. I told her I love her but she must zao.


See how entertaining it is
Whats more entertaining is their tagboard
Where unknown people "Tio Daji" in it
Meaning they're trying to find problems
Uhh, Singapore's very own and famous gangsters
The only ones who uses beer bottles and stuffs
Compared to other countries
Lets just say we'll be dead before we even fight
But hey, we got to admire this
We're the only special country with this special breed of gangsters

Okay, I'm starting to feel bad making fun of them
In fact, they're actually not doing anything wrong
Its just that the way they present themselves and stuff
And us being the Singaporeans we are
Just can resist the temptations to make a few comments about them
I don't really have anything against them
Its just those who picks on the ones in small groups
With their group or "backups"
When in reality, most of them cant really pack a punch

Anyways, I'm still figuring a way to solve the package of poly admission
Seriously, I got to find a job
Talking about jobs, I just got to say i have no luck whatsoever in finding one
And there, my parents are constantly discussing on my poly fees
I'm feeling super guilty not earning some extra incomes ..
Sometimes, i seriously hate the people who got our family into this state ..
Gamblers, the only real way to stop them is to chop off their hands huh
Then again, my father himself is one, not that I hate him
Since he's done plenty much for me
Alright then, pictures time


Up there is my rare Chinese buddy in AFT



Well, I'll post more when i have more
So thats all for now
And the fact that I'm posting this right now
Shows how freaking bored I'm right now

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/xin/20100226/ten-794-rainie-yang-voted-sexiest-taiwan-3c1b9bc.html
Oh yeah, i have great taste alright!
Its voted by American's somemore

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March Header Entry [Feb. 28th, 2010|09:04 pm]

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[morlockiness]
I did post this, but I went to edit the post and accidentally deleted it. These things happen. So I'm posting it again.

Frank enjoys spring )
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March Header Design Contest. [Feb. 28th, 2010|10:50 pm]

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[ohterlus]
Just a quick one to help get the ball rolling.  Fairly sure changing the logo to another color isn't allowed though.  I can always change it later.

Read more... )
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March Header Contest [Feb. 28th, 2010|06:29 pm]

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[chibifukurou]
My entry into the March Header Contest. I went with a Mardi Gras ThemeClick to View )
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March Header Contest [Feb. 20th, 2010|10:22 pm]

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[psychosteph84]
When I think of March I think of the beginning of spring

Header Here
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March header entry [Feb. 26th, 2010|03:15 pm]

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[kazu_hisoka]
The post in news said submit entries here. Here's my entry.

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